NYC days 1 and 2

so I got to New York yesterday at around 4:30, John (one of our friends) welcomed us very nicely :) we made dinner and waited for susie to come back from work. we ate a VERY big dinner. and we all talked until almost midnight.

I woke up this morning and we ate breakfast, went to BJ's and came back. suzie called and me and Jeri got tickets to see West Side Story on BROADWAY! this is gonna be my FIRST Broadway show!!!! I'm SO excited :D I'll post how that goes later :)

so Dad wanted to take me to a New York Deli, the one he used to go to when he was a kid. we got horribly lost and we went through the whole, "you should ask directions" "no, if we get REALLY lost, I have my Tomtom!" so, we got REALLY lost and we pulled out the Tomtom... no GPS signal.... that was an "Oh shit..." moment we just kept driving and we FINALLY got a signal, we were almost to the Deli and my dad wasn't paying attention and almost ran through a red light, he slammed his breaks REALLY hard and... the breaks die... he still had enough to not kill us. we made it to the Deli and I had the most amazing roast beef sandwich on the face of this planet. I swear when I go back to the Ohio Deli my stomach will be crying for the amazing half pound of rare roast beef with mayo and lettuce and salt and pepper on a Kaiser bagel. yummmmm :)

so YEAH! we're at Mcdonalds now, I'm using my dad's computer to post this and all's well with the world, I wouldn't replace this with ANYTHING!

tonight west side story, tomorrow our tour of the city :)

Updates, Arguments, and Lyrics!

so, I'm at my dad's house, just finished watching glee.. best show EVER!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE that show!!! soo ANYWAYS my day has been super utterly boring. this weekend jojo AND rachel spent the night, I had my audition I kicked some serious butt, had a mini mental breakdown and re-organized my room (which looks totally awesome now :D)

ok, my subject today is what I don't get about people.. is it just me or do some people like to just bring old stuff up to tick other people off? because it happens to me a bit and no one likes it, like.. at ALL! and thy start pointless arguments just so they can be right, even if they're completely wrong. but what I don't get MOST about people is how they can talk about me thinking I don't hear about what they're saying online OR offline. it REALLY gets me PO'ed.. I honestly think the majority of the reason they do stuff like this is for attention.. but I'm not them and I can't read their minds.. it just REALLY gets me AND others PO'ed I guess this is a kinda sorta warning/ Public service announcement to all the stupid people out there that don't know when to stop annoying the crap outta people

done with that venting now!

so, I wrote a song a LONG time ago (last year) and it stuck with me, I have piano chords and all that and it sounds good but I'm stuck on the bridge/ending
nut ANYWAYS here's the lyrics:

There's a time in your life
when all your light
seems to fade away
and you hope and you wish for those dreams to come true
but they seem to fade away

and you took all those things for granted
and now your friends are gone
you didn't realize 'till it's too late
you don't know what you have until it's gone
you don't know what you have until it's gone

you wait in distress for your hero to come
but he never shows
you forgot your coat and it starts to snow
you thought you'd do it alone

but you took all those things for granted
and now you're freezing cold
you didn't realize 'till it's too late
you don't know what you have until it's gone
you don't know what you have until it's gone

(some kind of bridge)

And you took all those things for granted
now it's all gone
you didn't realize 'till it's too late
you don't know what you have until it's gone
you don't know what you have until it's gone
you don't know what you have until it's gone...

corny lyrics, huh? I wrote this during a really rough time in my life. all my friends were gone and some other complications and I had basically next to nothing. you don't really appreciate what you have until you have nothing... so.. yeah! I'll be posting stuff in my free time in NYC (hopefully!)

thanks for reading!!

sleepovers and awesomeness

so, jojo slept over last night so I had to clean my room (it looks freakin amazing :D) and I found a tube of black lipstick from Halloween and we decided to put it on and take a bunch of pictures! I found out I can really pull it off and I look pretty damn hot in it :D haha it was great!! so now we're waiting to go to the local ice cream stand to meet everyone for ice cream :) soo... this is a really short post but we're gonna go now! see ya :D

wow..

so, I've noticed my blogs are crazy long and they're probably making your eyes bleed from reading them (if anyone still reads this blog anymore) I'll probably be posting every day (maybe) so if you're reading this now, there's more to come!

Exams, questions, friends

so today was the first day of my finals, had to wake up early (yuck) and go to school (double yuck) the math test made me wanna pull out my hair and bang my head on the desk, i was SO clueless! but the Spanish exam was SO easy, I finished with 20+ minutes left (it was a 150+ question exam)I finished my book and wrote on my planner xD after that I went to my friend's house and I got to hang out with her and her boyfriend (my best guy friend)we kinda played a question game and it got really deep, but it was fun and we spent like 2 or 3 hrs just asking each other questions. I'm so glad that they're my friends (love you two!!!) I can talk to them about... everything :) we were in the middle of our conversation when my friend's brother came saying someone was here to see us, we went out and two assholes (not mentioning names) came and were... well... assholes! it really pissed me of and I really wanted to tell them to jump in front of a car or something.. ugh, but after they left my friend's boyfriend had to go home because it was 2 pm. so me, my friend, and my friend's brother played badminton, my friend quit because she got tired so me and her brother kept playing, I'm pretty damn good at badminton if the sun's not in my eyes! we spent like.. 3 minutes hitting the Birdie back and forth without dropping it :D I left and now I'm here, typing a story on my blog, because I can, I'm sorry I haven't posted a lot I'm gonna get back into this because summer's here and... yeah!
<3 you all (srry for my rant post, I was REALLY upset, if you haven't read it, don't its a waste of time :P)

feelings re-surfacing

there was once a girl with a friend, she was a great friend and was like a big sister to this girl. that friend broke up with her boyfriend and he became suicidal, out of the blue he starts to talk to her, venting about how he feels. she'd never really talked to him, just knew him as her friend's boyfriend. they started to talk more, he was heartbroken over the breakup and I guess he needed someone to talk to. the girl talked to him, she soon became concerned and wanted to make sure he was ok, they would talk every day via IM. she hated that he was suicidal just over a breakup, but she had never experienced love before so she couldn't truly grasp it. soon they became really good friends and talked to each other about everything,without knowing or thinking, they were therapy for each other. after several months he started to get over his ex, and the girl started to become really attached to him, her feelings grew and she started to love him. he was her first real love but she didn't know it, he probably didn't either but after a while she finally confessed to him. unknown to her, he liked her too, but it couldn't work out, they were three years apart and even though he liked her, his friends looked down on it. Even though her heart was broken she still had hope, the two decided that they would be each other's fall back if they couldn't find a decent person to date. she loved him, and didn't want it to be like this, but she agreed. a little over a year passed and their relationship kinda fell apart. they took on the roles as "big brother and big sister" and started on different paths, they would say hi every once in a while but school started and they kinda forgot about each other, the girl dated a couple guys but they all ended up being jerks. more than a year passed and the girl decided on a whim to go through some old files. she found some old journals that described the conversations she had with her old friend. she realized how much she missed him and still had a tinge of feelings for him, all she wants now is to be able to talk with her "big brother" more

true story

a venting/ apology post

I'm SO sorry I haven't been on lately!! Finals are coming up and this month's been totally crazy! I've been confirmed, had an anniversary in Virginia,may fiesta, auditions, voice lessons and crazyness.

anyways, today has been like... the crappiest day of my life.... it's always when we clean the house that my family and I get into fights! like, when anne's at dad's we're fine! but all anne does is sit on the computer until she has to clean, and when she has to clean she just sits on her bed complaining how life's not fair, this wasn't her mess and she doesn't know where anything goes because she has so much stuff. anyways today she pissed my mom off so bad that my mom left the house, she's been gone for about an hour now and the kids were complaining *I* don't do anything, when I just finished cleaning the living room and dining room all by MYSELF because my mom left and my siblings have better things to do then be a part of the family and clean. so while I was cleaning the house, by myself, I made piles of the kids stuff in front of the kids doors, just like mom does. anne saw it and was all like "you put all this crap in MY room?!?!? you're such a bitch!" and she hit me! hey, I don't think little sisters should be calling their big sister's a bitch when her sister's in charge. of course she runs out of the house after that, and of course she has the phone with her, and of course she calls mom saying that I tried to kill her, and of course now I have no way to contact ANYONE if the house burns down or something.. it's ALWAYS like this though! we clean, anne complains, mom leaves, I'm stuck with the kids and all the responsibilities of the house and I get abused by my little sister. I just wish I had some help around the house when this happens, anne always takes the phone so there's no way I can call for help, and what could anyone do to help me?? I just wish I had a dad or something, I can't do this by myself! I'm just 14 and I'm a kid, yet everyone expects me to just keep smiling and pretend like nothings wrong and deal with it. I wish I could just be a kid, because I am one, and I have a life to live and I don't wanna be stuck in my house being abused by a sister with mental problems. people ask me "why don't you fight back?" I do, I have! I'm like, the weakest person alive, ask my friends, I can't even throw a punch. and on top of that anne's crazy strong, and I've gotten several horrible injuries from her, and I hate it! I have nowhere to go because my friends all live far away from me, my other family lives in Akron and I just dunno what to do anymore. I don't like living like this, it's horrible. I try to help wherever I can but all it leads is to abuse of some kind, mental verbal, physical.. and I'm slowly turning into this person I swore I never would be. I hate it, and I just need someone,anyone, to just be there for me, because right now I have no one that I know I could go to anytime, nowhere to run, just my home. and even in my home, its not safe, there's rarely any peace, I'm just rotting away slowly, it's sad.. I'll probably die young from my sister bashing my skull against the wall or something, she's tried that before but I've survived, in a sense, I dunno how long I can live like this...

I guess I just need help, I've made this crazy long plea/ vent blog and you guys probably think I'm crazy or something... I just don't know how to express what I need verbally, so I'm just writing so people know what's going on right now.. normally I just smile and pretend everything's ok. but right now, it's far from ok